Perpetual Healthy Eating and Fitness Rant & Rave thread

[merigayle]

Seriously annoyed right now. Was going to sneak out a bit early so I could go run. Well, I came in early, so I coudl leave early so I could run. But now I'm outta time. grumble grumble grumble

this is the story of my life!

[triciaflower]

okay I downloaded endomondo. Now what? I like how there are other people's runs on there. I haven't poked around too much yet.

[diablita]

Tricia, what's your username on endomondo?  I'll friend you.

[cgraz]

Hi blue! Glad you're here. Hope some treadmill time helped you get past feeling generally pissy.

Sounds like I should check out this endomondo? I never would have guessed that's a running app from the name. 

I weighed in today and was pleased that a good week has me back where I was before Thanksgiving, so that's a relief. Of course I could potentially repeat the same cycle, since I'm going to a Christmas party on Saturday night where there will be lots and lots of food and drink! But in a weird way, it makes me feel better to know that if I do, and I gain a couple of pounds, then I have the power to get back on track pretty reasonably. I'm within a pound and a half of my goal weight, and that makes me hopeful that once I reach that, it is something I could maintain.

Oh, and last night at yoga, my teacher said I have an "admirable chaturanga" (yoga pushup) and I did a great shoulder stand without the help of the wall - woo hoo! My arms are starting to look a little more defined - one night this week, mr. cgraz touched my arm and went "whoa!" when he felt my tricep. So of course then I flexed for him.  It is exciting to feel stronger, but to see some small changes (even if only I really see them) is even better.

It was our last class with that yoga teacher - he is moving back to the city and won't be teaching in NJ any more. We've been taking class with him for about a year, and it has been really neat. I think about where I have been in terms of my relationship with my body over the last year, and it has changed a lot for the better. After the IVF and then the ectopic and surgery, I was not really feeling connected or feeling like I had the power to be strong, feel good, etc. and it showed. Now I feel so much better and I can't think of any other way to describe it but it's as if my body and I are on the same team again. The fertility stuff is still unresolved (just acupuncture and trying, for $$ and insurance reasons - not sure how much longer we will even hope for that), but I don't feel as helpless for some reason. I think the yoga classes have really helped a lot - and now taking control of feeling better about my weight and health have also added to the positive changes.

[diablita]

  cgraz I'm glad you're feeling so strong, mentally and physically

[merigayle]

  cgraz. Not sure where in NJ you are, but Dr Check at Cooper rocks and his IVF is pretty inexpensive. I think he is the best doctor around and even though I am in PA, so many of my patients see him. His office is nuts crazy, but he gets results. I have a 48yo going in for retreival tomorrow and she has 4 follicles!

[cgraz]

Thanks, guys.

That's about 1.5 to 2 hours from me, meri - not sure it would be feasible, but I'll keep Dr. Check in mind. My acupuncturist also recommended someone near me, but right now we are in flux with insurance/finances, because mr. cgraz just lost his job and we also financed a huge and very necessary home repair. So kind of waiting to see what comes next, without flipping out about it too much.

[debbatx]

Sounds like you're doing great, cgraz - good for you!!

[merigayle]

sorry to hear about his job loss never fun. Cooper specializes in difficult cases and high FSH/older women/poor responders. There is also the SHER institute somewhere in NJ that is really good for difficult cases, they specialize in autoimmune issues.

The nuns just dropped off a cookie tray at work  what to eat first?

[Courtney]

Thanks, guys.

That's about 1.5 to 2 hours from me, meri - not sure it would be feasible, but I'll keep Dr. Check in mind. My acupuncturist also recommended someone near me, but right now we are in flux with insurance/finances, because mr. cgraz just lost his job and we also financed a huge and very necessary home repair. So kind of waiting to see what comes next, without flipping out about it too much.

Oof, that's a lot of stuff to deal with!   , vibes, etc for you guys that the job stuff looks up shortly and that it all works out!!   

[cgraz]

Oof, that's a lot of stuff to deal with!   , vibes, etc for you guys that the job stuff looks up shortly and that it all works out!!   

Thanks, the job thing is a huge stresser, and that just hit the fan this week, so it's hard not to panic, but it's scary.

[Courtney]

Thanks, the job thing is a huge stresser, and that just hit the fan this week, so it's hard not to panic, but it's scary.

My DH got laid off about 8 years ago, and it was a HUGE stressor for us.  And not panicking is tough.   

[Run Amok]

So, I went to the group session yesterday. It was honestly one of the most difficult things I've ever done in my life. I was about 30 minutes early and I spent that entire time battling against a panic attack. Someone here taught me the trick to hold your breath as long as you can, so I did that over and over again and that kept me sitting in that seat. When it was time to go in, everyone else seemed so... fine... and chipper, and I just wasn't and that made it even harder. We introduced ourselves, which I could barely do without bursting into tears... and I fought both to keep my composure and also to not get up and leave, for the next 30 minutes or so while the facilitator went over ground rules and curriculum of the group (it is 8 sessions). Then it was time for everyone to share their story. I honestly wasn't sure I could do it and had been dreading this moment for a long time. Surprisingly... I was able to force the words out, and talk about it and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

By the time we were done it was going to be so late so I grabbed dd and we went out to dinner at a dumpling house. I ordered pretty much everything on the menu, knowing it was more than I could eat. DD helped me eat some of what I'd ordered (hers was taking a long time and she was starving) but it was all rice based and lots of soy sauce, etc and we did order dessert. It was fine *once* but I don't want to get into the habit of doing this every session. So, I need to figure out dinner for those nights. Maybe I'll just do a packed lunch kind of thing. We'll see.

But in a weird way, it makes me feel better to know that if I do, and I gain a couple of pounds, then I have the power to get back on track pretty reasonably.

I think this has been really big for me. I don't stress too much about going off the rails for a few days, because I know that it's within my power, and not that difficult to get it back on track. Having an eating plan that you don't dread makes this much easier. My goal is to maintain during the holidays and then work on loosing a few more after the holidays.

Fingers crossed on the job thing. That is so hard!

[Magic Microbe]

Great job RA.....it has got to help to not be keeping it all bottled up inside.

Do you know why you can't talk about it? Does it just feel too personal? Don't be intimidated by the others...they are probably just different personalities. I am a talker so I basically tell my life story to anyone who will listen. Doesn't make me any emotionally healthier than you though.

[Mom of Scooby]

So, I went to the group session yesterday. It was honestly one of the most difficult things I've ever done in my life. I was about 30 minutes early and I spent that entire time battling against a panic attack. Someone here taught me the trick to hold your breath as long as you can, so I did that over and over again and that kept me sitting in that seat. When it was time to go in, everyone else seemed so... fine... and chipper, and I just wasn't and that made it even harder. We introduced ourselves, which I could barely do without bursting into tears... and I fought both to keep my composure and also to not get up and leave, for the next 30 minutes or so while the facilitator went over ground rules and curriculum of the group (it is 8 sessions). Then it was time for everyone to share their story. I honestly wasn't sure I could do it and had been dreading this moment for a long time. Surprisingly... I was able to force the words out, and talk about it and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

By the time we were done it was going to be so late so I grabbed dd and we went out to dinner at a dumpling house. I ordered pretty much everything on the menu, knowing it was more than I could eat. DD helped me eat some of what I'd ordered (hers was taking a long time and she was starving) but it was all rice based and lots of soy sauce, etc and we did order dessert. It was fine *once* but I don't want to get into the habit of doing this every session. So, I need to figure out dinner for those nights. Maybe I'll just do a packed lunch kind of thing. We'll see.


I think this has been really big for me. I don't stress too much about going off the rails for a few days, because I know that it's within my power, and not that difficult to get it back on track. Having an eating plan that you don't dread makes this much easier. My goal is to maintain during the holidays and then work on loosing a few more after the holidays.

Fingers crossed on the job thing. That is so hard!

I'm glad you went.. some times the things that are the hardest for us to do are the things we need the most too do.  You are brave for facing this head on.

[Run Amok]

Do you know why you can't talk about it? Does it just feel too personal?

Too personal. Too traumatic. Too big and overwhelming. To risky in terms of judgement from others, and probably judgement of myself. 

I am still skeptical that the group will help. But willing to show up for the next 7 weeks. The hardest part is over, I think.

[merigayle]

Too personal. Too traumatic. Too big and overwhelming. To risky in terms of judgement from others, and probably judgement of myself. 

I am still skeptical that the group will help. But willing to show up for the next 7 weeks. The hardest part is over, I think.

[debbatx]

I think it's awesome that you went, RA. I hope it helps.

[mango]

The hardest part is over, I think.

Most definitely.
You have taken a very brave first step.
Best wishes, RA.

[Run Amok]

Currently trying to decide whether to hit the tm or go out and run. I hate the treadmill. But it could be pooring by the time I get home,then I won't run. *sigh*